I have so many dreams, and I’m sure you do too. Dreams of what I want my future life to be: of the house I want, of how fit I want to be, of the businesses I want to start and own and run, of my future family, of travel, of making a music recording with my sisters, of working towards better relationships with family and friends, of owning and living on a farm, of outdoor adventure sports… and the list goes on. One of my best friends, Caylee, often tells me I’m going to “have to pick and choose”, and she’s mostly right. I still plan on accomplishing all my dreams, just not all at once.
But here is the big question: Am I doing theses things? Am I taking steps everyday to get closer to living the life of my dreams? Recently, I’ve been asking myself these questions, and to my dismay, the answer is no! I’m not doing it! I’m not taking those steps! And that’s why I struggle with depression, too. I’m not seeing the progress in my own life. What is getting in my way?? It is fear. I am scared. Scared of what could happen. Scared of what others might think of me. However, I have overcome enough obstacles to know that on the other side of doing what I am afraid of is the feeling of accomplishment and peace. It is never as bad as it seems! I was scared of getting a bank account – what about taxes? I was scared of meeting with an accountant to discuss my tax situation – what if I owed a lot of money? I was scared of going to the gym – what if seasoned gym-goers saw me doing a movement wrong and were internally laughing at me? I was scared of going rock climbing – what if I got in the way of better rock climbers, was clumsy, or had the wrong technique? I was scared to buy a new phone for the sake of a better camera – what if I needed that money for something else? I was scared to take my permit test – what if I failed? I was scared… and I did it… and I came out a better person on the other side. I moved forward, one step closer to accomplishing my dreams and goals. What do I want to do right now that I’m scared of? I could list so much… writing this post is scary, mostly because I am sharing what I actually think. But if it helps one person, it brings me the feeling of accomplishment and peace. So I’m going to publish it. I’m scared to start taking cello lessons again – it’s been a year since I took them. Will my teacher accept me back? Is that the best way to spend my money and time? I’m scared to start horseback riding again – what if I get the wrong teacher or horse? I’m scared to drive over 2-3 hours away from home – what if my car breaks down? I’m scared to get a wet suit and surf in the freezing cold water in the late fall and early spring – what if I get too cold or what if there are other surfers out there who are better than me and I get in their way? I’m scared to visit family during Christmas – they’re probably going to judge me for not going to college. I’m scared to open and up and actually talk to people – scared to be myself. I have two major fears: 1. What people think of me. 2. Spending money. But when I actually think about it, both of those are invalid fears. In the long run, it does not matter what other people think of me. All that matters is what God thinks of me. Also, I need to spend money to live the life I desire. And there is nothing wrong with that, as long as I don’t throw my resources away. But there’s still a little bit of fear inside of me….
How can I conquer that fear? Psalm 34:4 says I can seek God through it all because He will hear me and deliver me from all my fears. That is a comforting and freeing thought. I am fearless. I can face whatever I am afraid of, seek God, and He will take away my fear! I can accomplish my dreams!
God can deliver you from your fears too! Make a list of all the things you are afraid to do, seek God, and go do it! You have no reason to fear, because God has heard you, and He will deliver you from your fears… you just have to face them!
This week I already faced my fear of going to the rock climbing gym. Now I’m going to face my fear of publishing this post. And in the coming weeks, I am going to face my fears of skiing, visiting my relatives for Christmas, contacting my cello teacher, taking a long driving trip, and finding a place to ride horses again. I am excited just writing this, because I know that as long as I continue seeking God, I will have nothing to fear.
How are you going to overcome your fears and start living the life of your dreams TODAY? Feel free to share in the comments below!